Toxic on Dilantin. . .mmm, what fun Sept 27, 2006 12:54:06 GMT -5
Post by heidihope on Sept 27, 2006 12:54:06 GMT -5
So, my life has been particularly crappy health wise and everything else for the past few months. Nothing new there. The brilliant docs decided to put me on Dilantin a few weeks ago, and I struggled through some pretty bad side effects with that, but what the heck, it was worth a shot if it worked. Went to go get blood drawn last Wednesday, passed out on the tech, and then had a seizure on their floor, so they gave me 10 ccs of Valium right there, and sent me home, b/c I refused to go to the ER. That night, I passed out again, and had another seizure, and the family I'm staying with called 9-11. I don't really remember the next four days after that, but apparently the docs kept thinking if they just gave my little 115 lb body just a little more dilantin and valium, the seizures would stop. Well, they did, but so did the rest of me. Sunday I was finally lucid enough for my friends to fill me in on what an idiot I am when I'm high: catching snowflakes, and pointing out looney tunes characters that were floating above my bed, my boyfriend suddendly became the plant in the corner, and I only wanted to talk to my hallucinations, b/c they were the only people I could see clearly who could actually understand me. Yup, it was pretty messed up. Then the doc tried telling my that it was a mental problem, b/c the EEG they did (keep in mind while I was ENTIRELY HIGH and not even moving) came back normal, so they sent in a psych consult, who fortunately told me I flunked being nuts, and gave me referrals to two supposedly good neuros in the area. I got back home yesterday, and I didn't even bother to fill any of the prescriptions they gave me. I just don't care. I don't want to take any more meds that don't work, especially when I end up in the hospital going toxic on them. I'm done. I'll pad my bed posts and put in softer carpet. So I'm depressed, and bitter, and frustrated, and not at all my usual bubbly self, even though it does make me smile to think about catching the snowflakes.