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Post by 2lagit2britt on Oct 9, 2006 10:59:36 GMT -5
An update on me. I haven't been doing too well. My depression and anxiety are causing me to lose touch with the real world. I spend so much time alone at home these days. My boyfriend is never home and when he is he barely talks to me it seems. He has become fed up with my illness, which he still does not recognize. So, I feel like I am always alone. When I do go out I have a hard time. I get sick (usually with fatique, anxiety, and diahrea) when I have to walk around and am in a crowded place for too long. I am usually alright if there is one person that I am really comfortable with and I can concentrate on them, but even then after a while I begin to feel faint. I find myself happiest at home, in the dark, in bed, with a book or a cat. I am only 23 and want to live a more exciting life, like most people my age are. Everyday I wonder, when are things going to change? Will I wake up one morning and not look at myself and my life and hate it. Hate this world? I struggle to try and pull myself together, but nothing ever works out. My job is extremely stressful, my relationship might as well be nonexistant with the effort he puts in, I barely get to see my family (although my mother just came to visit me for the first time in two years, which sort of helped), and I have no friends, unless you count my pets. It makes it very hard to care enough to get out of bed, and get dressed, and walk out that door. Not to mention that I am constantly sick with vomitting or diahrea because of the way my body handles stress. Last night I was in the bathroom from 3am -5am sick and ended up passing out on the bathroom rug. When I woke up this morning for work, I could barely walk around the house to get ready without running to the toilet every five minutes. I don't know when or if I will grow out of this. I feel like I am missing the good things in my life, and pushing away all the things that I love. IT IS a very LONESOME place.
Britt
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Post by andrew on Oct 10, 2006 16:48:04 GMT -5
Very sorry to hear that things aren't getting any better, Britt. Just try to hang in there and have faith that it'll improve eventually. I'm still around most afternoons (evenings here) if you ever want someone to vent your problems on.
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Post by 2lagit2britt on Oct 13, 2006 10:22:39 GMT -5
Another Update:
I am doing alright I guess. Still lonesome. I have been having diahrea everyday about five times a day. Can't hold any food in. And it is very embarassing at work. I do not know what the cause of this is, but I am cutting back on meds at doctors intruction to try and calm myself. I think it is all stress related. I haven't been able to hold anything down since last Saturday. I am always hungry, but as soon as I eat, twenty minutes later I am rushing off to the bathroom. I have tried changing my diet somewhat, but it doesn't seem to matter what I eat. Has anyone been through this before??? I am already noticing a weight drop, which may just be a cause (at this point) of dehydration. Any suggestions? Thanks for any responses in advance.
Wishin' I could stay away from the bathroom! 
Britt
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Post by 2lagit2britt on Oct 13, 2006 10:23:32 GMT -5
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Post by Olivia on Oct 13, 2006 11:00:21 GMT -5
I know that when my kids have had this type of digestive issue, the pediatritian had me fast them for 24 hours and then go back on plain potatoes, dry toast, rice, bananas and applesauce. My youngest son had D once that lasted nearly a month. We fasted him for 24 hours, still plenty of liquids (clear only), and when he went back on the bland diet everything finally ended.
Now, I wouldn't try any of this without first talking to your dr. about it. You could be developing IBS or some such. You probably should be checked out anyway, just to be on the safe side.
Hope this all passes (no pun intended) quickly.
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Post by 2lagit2britt on Oct 16, 2006 0:34:09 GMT -5
Thanks for the response Olivia. The diet that you are talking about is known as the "B.R.A.T." diet and I have had to follow it in the past. I attempted earlier this week to cut back to mostly items on that list, but with no results. I can eat toast with margarine and will still have the same results. I have cut back on my dosage and will see the doctor again this week. This could be IBS or possibly just a result of stress, meds, etc. I am embarassed by this current situation and do not know how to explain it to my boss, and hope that it doesn't come to that point. This is day 9 of these problems. I am just hoping that I can solve this with my doctors this week, as I don't know how long I can continue like this (especially with work). Thanks for your support. I will update after doctor's appt.
Britt
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